INSECURITIES

Screenshot of my Tumblr Blog currently.

EVERYONE has insecurities, and things that they hate about themselves. Things that people would possibly do anything to change these hates about themselves, and this can in, worse case scenario, become very serious problems. It can end up with people doing things to their body that aren't healthy in anyway. People can become obsessed with loosing weight, possibly leading to a eating disorder. People could result in self harm to try and "deal" with the pain. 

I am not a type of person who endorses in these things, and these sort of problems that people can end up with ARE NOT RIGHT. People make out that self harm is 'okay', that it's 'okay' to feel like that, but ITS NOT. People need to come to a realisation that these things are wrong, and must be fixed in anyway possible. 

And we find there is a lot of help out there in concern to self confidence, weight worries and help on self appearance and to make things better. But when you think of this, I assure most people think of girls. Teenage girls that have these confident issues and really do need help. Don't get me wrong, it's great that there are organisations out there to be dealing with this, but step back and think about boys. What help is there for boy with body issues? What help is out there for boys self-confidence? As I imagine, I would of thought not that much compared to girls. It's not heard of for boys to have body issues, but they do. Boys have just as much issues as do girls. Boys are surrounded by what's the 'perfect man' and I assure you every boy/man what's to be that definition of the perfect man, they are constantly surrounded by girls and other boys discussing what they want in a 'boyfriend' and how they portray what boys/men should look like. Boys are constantly surrounded by good looking men, with the perfect body, the perfect jawline, the perfect hair, the perfect skin, and this can be just as damaging for boys as it is for girls. People don't realise that boys need help to. People don't see the need do help boys with these problems because its 'not what a boy should act like'. Well what should a boy act like? Not all boys are the same. 

Body confidence issues are with EVERYONE. Everyone wants the perfect body. Everyone wants the perfect skin. Everyone has that image in their head of how they want to look, including myself. And having this obsession isn't healthy. We obsess over how we want to change ourself into the person we want to be, if that's personality or appearance. We are a generation that is obsessed with body image. It's unhealthy. But admit it, you can't help but stand in front of the mirror, holding parts of your self that you hate away so you can imagine what you could look like without them.   

I thought of this blog post by spending a while on Tumblr and seeing SO MANY 'perfect' looking people, and how that made me feel.

DAY TO DAY - HEALTH & FITNESS

Over the last year and a half, I have been wanting to change my health and fitness regime, and overall my personal appearance. And to be as least modest as I can be, I have. Since January 2012, I have lost my weight lose goal of 2 stone.

Admittedly I have been slacking since I have had my GCSE exams and have lost the motivation to get exercising, and put on those sneaky extra pounds (I wont tell anyone if you don't!) But today, out of nowhere (My sister harassing me for this months gym money) I have found my lost motivation. I am back in the mind-frame of watching what I eat and drink, and what I physically do.

Before anyone makes the presumption that going on a "diet" can be more bad than good, like I have stated, I have undergone this over a long period of time and taken stages in my "diet" slowly and progressing to the next step when I, personally, feel ready to do so.

In January 2012, I was having to go into larger clothing sizes, and was fast approaching the stone of weight that I DID NOT want to be. So I did something about it! For the first 4 or 5 months, all I did was change my diet. I changed what I ate for healthier options, cut down on how much I ate and limiting stacks to a minimum. But the way I done it was I still ate what I enjoyed! I still ate chips, I still ate carbs and dairy. And in that way I didn't get bored of my diet, and I started enjoying my change of diet better than my diet before. I started a food diary, and calculated that I had minimized my average daily calorie intake by around 1000 calories (I seriously ate over the RDA (Recommended Daily Allowance) and very high calorie foods).

 

Me before I started my "diet" and me now (I hope someone can see at lease a slight change...)

I then started fitness classes with the high motivation of my close family and friends, but mostly my sister Emma. We truly motivated each other to work hard and get what we wanted to achieve, and I truly appreciate what she done to keep me going! As well as the help from my other sister Donna, my niece Chloe and my friends who exercised with me)

After a while I truly started to enjoy exercising! (BIG SURPRISE!!!) In regards to the fitness classes, I started with low intensity classes like Aqua-Aerobics and worked my way up to Aero-Biking/Spin Classes, Circuit Training and a brief encounter with Kettle-Bells and more.

I will admit that since my GCSE exams, I have lost motivation and become a utter lazy slob! My exams came first, and once they ended I vowed to get back to the regime, but I didn't... My diet has slipped a little as I am now off school and am not moving as much as I should. BUT this is changing TODAY! I haven't eaten any high-calorie snacks and have booked a badminton court with my niece Chloe for later today. I have found the motivation that I thought I had lost, and WILL get back on track!

SIDE BY SIDE - These photos were taken
around a year between each other

A "diet" is different for everyone, and everyone finds their own unique way to deal with one. Too me I haven't undergone a diet, but a change of lifestyle that was drastically needed! Like I said, I wanted to loose 2 stone in weight by the time my Year 11 Prom, and I did that! I'm still not happy in how I look or feel, but now my goal is to get my body into what I want it to be.

I'm sorry if this blog entry was a bit long and I rambled on a bit, But I feel as though I needed to post something like this to get me back into my health and fitness mind-frame! 

Thanks to anyone who lovingly taken time out of their day to read this!:)